Homophones.

Homonyms are words which share a name, or “have the same name” (etymologically), whether by spelling or sound, despite the vest difference between those two variance. Usually, homonyms refer to words which are spelled the same . . . Like the arid desert heart of the one who deserts you at Piggly-Wiggly.

Homophones are words which sound the same but are spelled differently, and mean different things . . . Like except and accept. Social life feels very accepting until it begins excepting you out of it. The film reel makes it difficult to discern what is real. To write the wrong is not to right it. I'll find you in the aisle with an ad for a tropical isle beside it.

The altar is where flesh alters itself into bread. The band got banned by local officials. A bear who is bare comes bearing acorns. The bread we eat, the habits bred by shared meals. To sell one's blood includes tiny red cells. The cord on the floor, the chord in the air. To elicit a smile, or to provoke desire with an illicit photo. The fairy has wings. The ferry has an engine and floats on water. Someone ferried us here. We marry and hope to be merry. He may mince words when looking for mints.

The oar helps move the boat, or something, in the sentence where the ore is buried beneath the earth. Each soil has its ores.

To sew is to connect with a thread. So, he said. Sow the plants seed that food may come of it.

One may pray for mercy. Another may prey on the merciful.

His hands on my waist, the waste of clean water.

One particular beast’s tail is another's tale to tell. Yet another’s tell to read and recognize in the game.

We is massive. But the wee is tiny. And oui, elsewhere, is yes.

Anyway, it’s fun to keep a running list of homophones in your poetry notebook. They make great hinge words and have the capacity to turbo-charge a volta.

[Motivating myself to work on this project by collaging and making an image public— this is my tactic. This is how I nudge myself towards the things I set aside in draft…]

Here’s what Charles Simic wrote in his essay, “The True Adventures of a Franz Kafka’s Cage”:

While the bickering of two housewives over whose son broke the window of a funeral parlor was putting the judge to sleep, a policeman brought into the court room a birdcage accused of propositioning a street sparrow to have a go at one of its swings.

A literary cage is, I think, a lovely conceit.

On journals and notebooks as genre, briefly.

In his 1918 journal, Andre Gide wrote:

It is from the point of view of art that what I write should be judged, a point of view never taken, or almost never taken by the critics… Moreover, it is the only point of view which is not exclusive of any other.


The journal continuously revisits itself and its conclusions in light of new reading or knowledge. The production of self, in this form, is tentative: it is willing to be rearranged or remade.

Tentativity occupies time and space differently from rigidity. The marble statue is rigid — it asserts itself against tentativity. The notebook is fluid.

As Roland Barthes remarks in his first published essay, “Andre Gide and His Journal”: "The stream is more durable than marble…”

The ellipsis is Barthes’ own. The ellipsis, itself, is common to journals, a marker of where a thought trails off to be picked up later.


And there is something poetic about this notebook’s ellipses — some way in which the uncertainty of self’s relation to time crosses both forms.

I’m thinking of Frank Bidart’s “Self-Portrait, 1969",” which uses ellipses in order to move back and forth between the self in the world and the self in the mind’s eye.

“He’s still young,” still overdetermined by what the word young allows or evokes.

Bidart plays with the eye a bit: this poem is composed of two stanzas, but the extreme indentation of “Once, instead,” makes it seem like three stanzas exist. The use of the field, the long blank before the qualifying condition, drags its finger along the rim of a sink, and all that white porcelain.

When I begin this poem
to see myself
as a piece of history . . .

Frank Bidart wrote this somewhere, in a poem, according to my notebook, which lacks the poem’s title and imagines each line as the first line of a triptych.

There is a way in which the journal or notebook genre enables the placing of words behind each other rather than after each other — it is disorienting to be the speaker inside a chronology. No conclusions can be drawn about the subject who is the speaker.

”I was writing this poem about someone else,” Samuel Cheney says in “This Was Before The Wedding.”

I was someone else before the wedding. Who am I now?

“I lost my father before I was twelve years old,” Gide writes.

From Andre Gide’s Strait is the Gate, translated by Dorothy Bussy.

The day when Gide’s mother “changed the black ribbon in her morning cap for a mauve one” . . .

Should I watch With Andre Gide? Isn’t this question mark actually wanting to be an ellipsis . . .

On a different note, Roland Barthes published an essay titled “Deliberation” about journals and notebooks. In it, he explains why he didn't keep a journal; and why the notebook, as a text, to him seems to fail, or to be implicated in the aesthetics of failure. But some of his favorite writings were notebooks, particularly those of Andre Gide. Imagine the ellipsis.

Hashtag with poetry prompts from Kim Addonizio.

So much cruelty is framed as truth-telling on social media. #hottakefromhell I’m studying myself in the frame of social media posts, learning about this woman named Alina whose performance of perfection is stippled with protests to the contrary. #hownottoparent I’m a frame within a frame of competitive marketing in a publishing industry increasingly reliant on authors to hustle their books or mothers to worship their children or grandparents to repost cringe-worthy memes. #therealme doesn’t believe in competing for human relatives and attention but I have so many friends who #tribe, and I'm beguiled by new apps that commodify the market of self-improvement metrics which give us a sense of control by marking tiny achievements. Socialized early by school grades and tests, do we ever outgrow that training to display how well we’re doing? #performativewellbeing correlates with inflatable ego, which others evaluate on the basis of the size of the inflatable jumper one can afford for a child’s birthday party. #whocares #hashtageachheart #signifysomething #googleityrself

#poetryexercisesfromKimAddonizio

  1. Find a line by someone else and look for different nouns or adjectives beginning with the same letter as the line. Play with substitutions.

  2. Write a poem for the end of something with "lost" in the title. See "Lost Poem" by Ted Berrigan.

  3. Name a specific time or place in your title and then write a poem about it.

  4. Write ten openings that begin in media res.

  5. Write a poem to the future modeled on Brecht's "To Those Born Later" or Ruth Stone's "Look to the Future."

  6. "Jot down a list of things you see around you and fall recklessly in love with all of them."

  7. Make a list of 50 favorite words and write a poem with them. Then experiment with framing by adding in words from a cookbook or a how-to text.

  8. Write a lyrical list poem like A. Van Jordan's "afterglow" which uses slashes to build pauses through a string of associations.

  9. Anaphora is the repetition of an opening word or phrase. Write one that borrows "but" or "the bluest".

  10. Write a poem that repeats the last word or phrase of a line in the beginning of the next line.

  11. Article, adjective, noun: article, adjective, noun, verb, adverb.

  12. Write an opening sentence. Now change period to comma and add "as if" or"because" or etc or although.

Can't and Won't with Lydia Davis.

Reading Lydia Davis always drops ideas for form and constraint straight into my Sunday brain. I’ve included a few below because each of them can be used as a model for writing, or for generating something in the same vein. All are excerpted from Lydia Davis’ Can’t and Won’t: Stories.

And here’s a link to “How I Read as Quickly as Possible Through My Back Issues of the TLS,” another story from this collection that makes a great have-at-it.

REVERSIBLE STORY: Use Davis’ reversible story as a model for your own doubling-over.

CAN’T AND WON’T: Write a brief paragraph about a contraction, or a set of contractions, where contracting led to consequences in an event. Even if the event was a misunderstanding. Even better.

THE LANGUAGE OF THINGS IN THE HOUSE: I’ve included the first page of this piece, and then excerpted some of the beautiful passages on languages which Davis intersperses between sounds. The juxtaposition, and the flagging with italics, is worthy studying. How do italics change the texture of the language in this particular piece?

Make an inventory of the language of things in your house. Sit down or go for a listening walk through each room. Then go back and write a few paragraphs on the story of origins for select sounds. Use italics. Experiment with diction and mythography (as opposed to Davis’ semantic focus).

On the unthinkable.

1

The mayor of Hudson, Ohio demanded that the members of the local school board members resign because high schoolers cannot write about sex, beer, or death.

To write about something requires us to consider it — to think about it — and to think about a thing involves a certain level of epistemological commitment.

Source: Harper’s Magazine

2

Many things are unthinkable, or difficult to consider.

When I think of the book one doesn't want to write, I think of Emily Rapp's memoir, The Still Point of the Turning World, about her son, Ronan, who was born with Tay-Sachs. The book journeys through the "terra incognita" of raising a child to die. From the beginning, Rapp centers the presence of death in their lives--she tells people her baby is dying. The presence of dying in the verb to be.

The death of a mother giving birth to a child: Rapp considers this while studying death as it draws closer to the life of her son.

Can we speak a death into existence?

Is manifestation an actual power or a means of self-soothing?

Mary Shelley Godwin's mother died while giving birth to her. Was there any relationship between her mother's death and 18-year-old Mary Shelley’s habit of reading ghost stories with her friends and then challenging each other to write their worst?

They sat with the dead and wrote. Mary's lover, Percy Bysse Shelley, Lord Byron, and his pregnant lover, Claire, were fascinated by recent attempts to "animate" dead matter. Mary's story was published the following year, 1818, anonymously. Was she trying to animate the mother she lost?

Maybe we are all writing to animate dead matter.

3

The line between memoir and fiction is so tenuous when it comes to dying or remembering. When asked about memorable images, Jorge Luis Borges remembered the tigers in illustrated versions of childhood encyclopedias better than “the eyes or the smile of a woman.”

4

A nest is a space we dream of returning to.

An empty nest is space that wants someone to return to it.

“Values alter facts,” wrote Gaston Bachelard. “The moment we love an image, it cannot remain the copy of a fact.”

There is the loss of a child, and then there is its aftermath.

5

Ralph Waldo Emerson grieved his son’s death in patches, across decades, through pages. The harrow in his tone is made conspicuous by his efforts to hold it back. There is a passage in “Experience” where Emerson attempts to qualify grief, to send a boundary on it, and something in me always breaks when I read it.

How shaky the ground he trods here. How wobbly his footsteps.

Here is the passage (adding my own italics):

The only thing grief has taught me is to know how shallow it is. That, like all the rest, plays about the surface, and never introduces me into the reality, for contact with which we would even pay the costly price of sons and lovers. Was it Boscovich who found out that bodies never come in contact? Well, souls never touch their objects. An innavigable sea washes with silent waves between us and the things we aim at and converse with. Grief too will make us idealists. In the death of my son, now more than two years ago, I seem to have lost a beautiful estate, —no more. I cannot get it nearer to me. If to-morrow I should be informed of the bankruptcy of my principal debtors, the loss of my property would be a great inconvenience to me, perhaps, for many years; but it would leave me as it found me, —neither better nor worse. So is it with this calamity: it does not touch me; something which I fancied was a part of me, which could not be torn away without tearing me nor enlarged without enriching me, falls off from me and leaves no scar. It was caducous. I grieve that grief can teach me nothing, nor carry me one step into real nature. The Indian who was laid under a curse that the wind should not blow on him, nor water flow to him, nor fire burn him, is a type of us all. The dearest events are summer-rain, and we the para-coats that shed every drop. Nothing is left us now but death. We look to that with a grim satisfaction, saying, There at least is reality that will not dodge us.

I take this evanescence and lubricity of all objects, which lets them slip through our fingers then when we clutch hardest, to be the most unhandsome part of our condition. Nature does not like to be observed, and likes that we should be her fools and playmates. We may have the sphere for our cricket-ball, but not a berry for our philosophy. Direct strokes she never gave us power to make; all our blows glance, all our hits are accidents. Our relations to each other are oblique and casual.

Grief does not teach — it simply lays claims which cannot be evidenced or substantiated — it throws us back upon eternity without leaving a recognizable notch in it.

6

In the space where Emerson declares "the evanescence and lubricity of all objects, which lets them slip through our fingers then when we clutch hardest” to be "the most unhandsome part of our condition”, I met Stanley Cavell.

Or, I met Cavell’s own obsession, for this is the terrain to which Cavell returned in Emerson, again and again.

One of the few things I remember from my 21st year of life is Stanley Cavell’s Conditions Handsome and Unhandsome: The Constitution of Emersonian Perfectionism. I know there were lakes, road trips, bagels with herring, walks in the cemetery with philosophy friends, a fiancee, two cats, two fifty gallon saltwater fishtanks— but Cavell is the part I remember most vividly.

Cavell was the text. And then he was the film. And then he was the next text, the one sitting to the left of Wittgenstein’s Tractautus. And then somewhere near Wittgeinstein’s Philosophical Investigations.

But Conditions came first. Conditions and the handful of other humans who met me in thinking through its words.

7

The conditions for speech are different than those of aesthetics. But thought is the way through a life.

Thoughtlessness is what a human can share with a red balloon.

I’m not interested in the Ohio mayor’s opinion on whether teenagers should be allowed to think through the most difficult, unspeakable, and humbling parts of human life. I am interested in how, and under what circumstances, we are encouraged to think — and what sort of thought is socialized in American high schools.

Problem-solving is a way of approaching a statement with an eye to lessening its claim on the mind. But a problem-solving approach doesn’t always require thinking; we approach the day’s tiny slights and bana; disturbances without falling deep into thought. Habit can get us across a street. Habit can regurgitate and recite. Reciting the pledge of allegiance is a habitual regurgitation. As is any anthem or ritual.

8

“I don’t think when I perform a difficult piece on the piano,” M. said tonight. “If I think, I lose my place— I lose my bearings in the flow. Performing is a strange alchemy of muscle memories, mathematics, and riding one’s nerve. You never know if the thought of someone’s feelings will rip you out of it. I think of nothing outside the music, and there are no words for how the mind operates when I am completely caught up in it.”

Is writing like this? I don’t know.

There are notes scribbled in pencil all over M.’s sheet music. He guards his notations, his marginalia, as one would guard a secret.

Composer Anton Rubinstein had his music seized at the border because Russian officials thought its notes were a kind of revolutionary code. Under the Tsar, if one signed a letter of love, it shouldn't imply insubordination to one's First Love for God or the Tsar. What Mikhail Bakunin called the Black Beast (the Russian empire’s combination of church and state) dragged Russia along behind them in a yoke. The Tsar's coronation was literally a sacrament equal to those services accompanying baptism, marriage, and extreme unction.

At 17, Arthur Rubenstein appeared at Scriabin's door and offered himself as an acolyte. He would be the first to introduce Scriabin's Fifth Piano Sonata to Londoners.

In Nexus, Henry Miller extols Scriabin as a divinity, a holy distraction from the world. 

Scriabin's Sonatas use Italian for the general tempo markings and French for the intimate particulars. I am writing a novel about this.

“That is why I acquired a taste for misanthropy; why I nurtured hypochondria; why I became the most (leaden-like) miserable of men,” wrote Erik Satie in 1924. “It distressed people to look at me — even through hall-marked gold eye-glasses. Oh yes.”

Oh yes.

9

Here’s a small excerpt from my imaginary version of 642 Things to Write About for high school students. There are no questions or puzzles to resolve. There is a human, a pen, a notebook, a rephrasing of the statement or argument followed by a response to it.

The response cannot be anything except one’s own.

There is no correct answer. There is no grade or score. There are only thoughts to be thunk, and unspeakable things to consider, closely. More closely. Again and again, and more.

Albert Camus: “The only fundamental philosopical question is suicide. Judging whether life is or is not worth living amounts to answering the fundamental question of philosophy. All the rest – whether or not the world has three dimensions, whether the mind has nine or twelve categories –comes afterwards.”

Stanley Cavell: “Death, so caused, may be mysterious, but what founds these lives is clear enough: the capacity to love, the strength to found a life upon a love. That the love becomes incompatible with that life is tragic, but that it is maintained until the end is heroic. People capable of such love could have removed mountains; instead it has caved in upon them. One moral of such events is obvious: if you would avoid tragedy, avoid love; if you cannot avoid love, avoid integrity; if you cannot avoid integrity, avoid the world; if you cannot avoid the world, destroy it.”

Theodor Adorno: "On Popular Music".

Gaston Bachelard: “So there is also an alas in the song of tenderness. If we return to the old house as to a nest, it is because memories are dreams, because the home of other days has become a great image of lost intimacy.”

Ralph Waldo Emerson: “I think that philosophy is still rude and elementary. It will one day be taught by poets. The poet is in the natural attitude; he is believing; the philosopher, after some struggle, having only reasons for believing…The poet sees wholes and avoids analysis; the metaphysician, dealing… with the mathematics of the mind, puts himself out of the way of inspiration; loses that which is the miracle and creates the worship.”

Stanley Cavell: “What I require is a convening of my culture's criteria, in order to confront them with my words and life as I pursue them; and at the same time to confront my words and life as I pursue them with the life my culture's words may imagine for me: to confront the culture with itself, along the lines in which it meets me.”

David Nowell-Smith: "The Art of the Fugue: Heidegger on Rhythm".

Douglas Shadle: "Classical Music and the Color Line".

Igor Stravinsky: “If one only need break a habit to merit being labeled revolutionary, then every musician who has something to say and who in order to say it goes beyond the bounds of established convention would be known as revolutionary. [...] The quality of being revolutionary is generally attributed to artists in our day with a laudatory intent, undoubtedly because we are living in a period when revolution enjoys a kind of prestige among yesterday's elite. Let us understand each other: I am the first to recognize that daring is the motive force of the finest and greatest acts; which is all the more reason for not putting it unthinkingly at the service of disorder and base cravings in a desire to cause sensation at any price. I approve of daring; I set no limits to it. But likewise there are no limits to the mischief wrought by arbitrary acts.”

Charles Baudelaire: "It is evident that rhetorics and prosodies are not arbitrarily invented tyrannies, but a collection of rules demanded by the very organization of the spiritual being, and never have prosodies and rhetorics kept originality from full manifesting itself. The contrary, that is to say, that they have aided the flowering of originality, would be infinitely more true."

Robert Temple: "The Philosophy of the Fugue".

Tyhembia Jess: "Sam Patterson, Harlem, NY: Dec. 12, 1924".

Stanley Cavell: “Appropriating” seems to have the same stress put on it in relating the individual to the world through the ownership of property as “belief has in relating the individual to the world through the acquisition and power of knowledge.”

Emily Dickinson: “After great pain, a formal feeling comes –
The Nerves sit ceremonious, like Tombs –
The stiff Heart questions ‘was it He, that bore,’
And ‘Yesterday, or Centuries before’?”

Aaron Copland: "A Modernist Defends Modern Music".